Quoting from my darling girl's blog, was shocked to read this...
"Whatever I'm doing will never meet her expectation. In her eyes, Fang jie jie is the perfect daughter she wishes and even dream to have."
A perfect daughter? I'm definitely not. That was only what you think she was thinking.
My dear girl, why are u losing all the confidence in urself?
Why are you doubting the love of ur parents?
Daddy and Mummy obviously love you alot.
If they don't, would they bother to worry or get angry over the things u do?
You are forever a little girl in their eyes (even mine) thus they (we) tend to be a little too protective over u.
Just that the way they express their love isn't what you've expected from them doesn't mean they don't love u.
They may not be good with words but do bear in mind that they really do care for u in every circumstances.
No one will understand what we are going through unless they go through themselves or you make an effort to explain to or confide in them. So talk nicely to them. Patience is the word.
If u think u really cant talk to them, write.
However, i wouldn't recommend that coz here's this thing call MISUNDERSTANDING.
Readers may misinterpret the messages a writer is trying to convey so writing should be ur last resort.
People have different studying habits thus no one will know exactly what is ur style of studying.
Explain to mummy why you are unable to concentrate at home and why you prefer studying outside with friends.
Give her hundreds of good reasons if u can, like i gave dua yi.
- i dislike the yellow lightings in my room
- i have a 100%-make-me-fall-asleep-while-studying living room
- i can't stop eating when studying at home
- i help to save up on our electricity bills coz aircon is 'free' in skool and even in Macdonalds
- i can escape from my bed for once
- i can't watch tv or korean dramas when i'm studying outside (no SCV somemore, only TVMobile if i'm in the bus & the little screen in our NEL MRT)
- i won't get jealous or want to be a dog coz i wun be able to see Max sleeping peacefully on my bed while i'm studying like crazy
- i dun have to study in the toilet when nothing can get into my mind at all
(u may have the permission to use any of the 'excuses' *opps.. i mean reasons* for not studying at home)
"Studying outside gave mummy so much worry and anxiety that i will not be paying attention"
(doesn't that show she cares, darling?)
No one else is more precious than our own family.
They will be there for you no matter what happens.
That includes me. =)
Study hard, do not let your stressfulness stir ur negative thoughts and feelings again.
I'll treat you to good food after ur exams. *i promise*
